Showing posts with label NaBloPoMo-September. Show all posts
Showing posts with label NaBloPoMo-September. Show all posts

Monday, September 30, 2013

Day #30

Have you ever woke up and felt like Good Fortune was smiling down on you?


THAT IS NOT HOW I FEEL TODAY!


Please excuse me while I go see if caffeine will help this situation.




Okay.

I was having a moment.

I almost didn't come back. 

I will tell you caffeine and good music does help.  It took a lot of caffeine to get me back to my keyboard.  I also went back and forth between in-your-face-take-that or happy-feel-good music.  I am now on my 4th cup of Cafe Verona (treat) and I am breathing normal again.  I have also learned that if you play your music loud enough...it drowns out all the other voices in your head.  There is a lot of humor here.  You will understand as I explain.  It is just funny to me how things in my life wrap themselves up in neat little packages.  Sometimes with pretty bows and ribbon.  Sometimes with twine and old newspaper.  Let me lay it all out for you.

The month of September was a challenge in blogging.  I gladly accepted the challenge and have enjoyed most of it.  I was not perfect in my execution, but heck, I wrote a lot of crap this month.  The main topic of the month:  serving.  We discussed the how's, the why's, the who's, the where's, and so on.  Plus, we covered all the touchy-feely-let's share our feelings-stuff.  It was good.  I am glad I did it.  I hope you walked away wanting to do something for someone.  I hope you stopped thinking about yourself for a moment.  I hope you get your head out of the clouds and take a look around you down here on the ground.  You know?  Where there may be people that could benefit from something you do.

Just be careful.

You see.  On this last day of September.  The last day of my blogging challenge.  The last day of contemplating the fact that serving others is good for humanity.  The very day that I intended to get out of bed and have a farewell moment with all of you.  Something ridiculously funny happened.

Have you ever stopped what your were doing in your life to help someone out?  Someone that really needs your help.  Maybe it is advice?  Maybe they have been grossly taken advantage of and they need someone they can trust to help them find a way out of their situation?  Then, while you are doing your best to lend this person a hand, they are so grateful for your help that they keep insisting that they be allowed to do something for you.

Oh no...that is not necessary.

I don't mind helping you out one bit.

Really.

It's okay.

So, the process continues, and the cycle continues, and you are doing your best to help this person to a better situation - all the while, continuing to refuse anything they are offering in return. 

Really.

It is okay.

You do not have to do anything for me at all.

I won't hear of it.

The thing is...this is the kind of person that will be forever indebted to you.  I mean, a friend for life.  The kind of friend that would go into battle with you and not even ask what the war is about.  I am talking Life Long here.

I stayed up late last night.  Really late.  Nothing critical - just not ready to go to bed.  I awoke to the sound of a truck in my driveway.  I jumped up and looked out my window to find my new-found friend unloading something really large.  I grabbed a jacket and some rubber boots and went outside.  By the time I got outside...It was already unloaded.

Take yourself to a time and a place when you were given a gift that you did not want or need.  Something so horrendous that every thought-word-action following the presentation was so fake it made even you sick.  You know what I am talking about?

Ooohhh.

Wow.

That is something.

I can't say that I have ever seen anything like it before.

How did you know?

Where did you find it?

Really?

I couldn't.

This is just too much.

This is what happened to me...before coffee.

I hope I was gracious.

I accepted my gift.

I was thankful.

I am glad that I have done what I could for this individual.

I will keep trying to help out my new friend.

I do consider him a friend.

He is very sweet.

However...

I will need a truck and another good friend to haul this thing out of here.

And, I believe that I will have to pay extra at the city dump or they won't take it.

If I can leave you with another thought on Serving:  Funny!  It can be real funny!

Please excuse me?  I have to figure out where to hide this thing.  Or, how to explain to the Man in Charge what has happened before he gets home and has a heart attack in the driveway!

On second thought...maybe I will just wait and see what happens. 

This could be a gift that keeps on giving.

Yes.

I know.

Sick.

Twisted.

Demented.

Or...cheap entertainment.

P.S.  In a weird, cross-eyed, grossly-miscommunicated way, the gift I was given today is exactly what I asked for.
That is the thing about words.  They are weird little boogers that can totally come back and bite you in the behind if you're not watching.



Friday, September 27, 2013

Day #27

T.G.I.F.

Not really.

The day is totally irrelevant to me.

I do the same thing.

Every day.

Except Sunday.

Sunday is Church and a nap.

I love Sunday.

Come on cold front.


Top Ten reasons it would be awesome to be a dog.
 
  1. You would know more about your person than anyone else in the world.
  2. Loving and Forgiving would be the most natural thing to you.
  3. Multiple naps - completely acceptable.
  4. Not in charge of food.
  5. Begging may not be okay, but you can get away with it occasionally.
  6. Playing until you drool and your tongue hangs out is encouraged.
  7. No guilt involved in wanting your belly rubbed.
  8. You get treats at the Bank and at the Veterinarian's office.
  9. Perfectly acceptable to hang your whole head out of the car window.
  10. No Stress - If you can't eat it or play with it, pee on it and walk away.

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Challenge Day #26

What's happening?

I got nothing.

I have a list.

Surprising?

I know.

I don't want to do anything on it.

Basically, it is so overwhelming, I don't know where to start.

I could just close my eyes and pick something.

That would be better than nothing, right?

Do I want to work inside or outside?

Decisions.

Decisions.

Decisions.

Instead, I think I am going to give you the Top 10 reasons to be a kid again.

  1. No alarm clocks and most people will be quiet until you wake on your own.
  2. All your meals are prepared for you.
  3. You don't have to do dishes.
  4. No wardrobe decisions and most kid clothes are cute.
  5. People love to see you coming.
  6. Mandatory naps.
  7. No responsibilities, except possibly your own toys.
  8. Entertainment is preplanned for you...movies, play dates, trips to the park, etc.
  9. Everyone wants to know how your day went.
  10. Not only do you get tucked in, but always an optional bedtime story.

We can dream, right?

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Day #25


When something bad happens to one of my animals, I feel compelled to share it.  Possibly you have the same animal?  Possibly this information could be useful to someone?  Possibly I just need to purge it from my life, and this makes that happen?

I find it really hard to write about things as they happen.  I think it is important to - First, get a handle on the situation.  Second, the animal has to be okay.  Third, I need time to recover.  I told you I would fill you in, and I have gone through the above needed stages of recovery, so here you go. 

This is going to be a bare bones, not a lot of fluff, gross things will be covered, sort of story.  If you eat at your computer, don't read this.  If you don't understand part of this story, feel free to ask your questions in the comment section.  Then make sure to check back for answers.





Colic - 
noun
1. paroxysmal pain in the abdomen or bowels.

adjective
2. pertaining to or affecting the colon or the bowels.
 
Now that I have convinced you to put your afternoon snack or dinner plate down, I will explain.  Some of us are only familiar with the term Colic as it pertains to babies.  The unsettled, incessant crying of a colicky baby is something that is hard to forget.  If you are familiar with horses, you know that they too can succumb to the pains of Colic.  It is quited dangerous for the large animal and can result in death.  The major fact to realize is that a horse's digestive system is a one way track.  They can not throw up.  What goes in one end, must come out the other.
 
A horse can colic for many reasons.  Colic can range from a mild episode of upset digestion to an all out emergency resulting in an impaction or a twisted bowel.  In the event of the latter, you are faced with the decision to perform colic surgery or put the animal down.  For those that are curious, colic surgery runs from $5000 - $7500.  As with any major surgery, there is always the risk of complications.
 
A little background on our history with Colic. 
 
Our old Stallion, very prone to colic.  He was a tough guy, but he had a very sensitive digestive system.  A bout of colic could start with a sudden change in the weather.  Usually a hot, humid, still day would send him over the edge.  Maybe sudden cold would be the culprit?  Over time, we began to notice the potential triggers, and we were able to head things off a little better.  Hot, humid day - I would hose him down three or four times.  Cold day - I would drag him out of his stall and walk him a couple of times a day.  I also started feeding him three times a day, instead of twice a day.  This gave him smaller meals to digest.  Not to mention, becoming very picky about the quality of hay he consumed.  He was sort of a pig and would eat anything and everything.
 
Our old mare, not a lot of episodes for her.  She experienced a couple of rounds of colic around vaccination time.  It took a bit of time and effort, but we realized she was having a reaction to the rabies vaccine.  Once we determined the trigger, she no longer recieved that particular vaccine.  All other times seemed to be more mild.  I could usually spot it as it started and head it off with her.  It may be as simple as a walk and tie her to the trailer.  This usually stimulated her bowels to get moving.
 
The other two in the barn have greatly benefited from the education we received from the first two.  They eat three smaller meals a day.  They never get all their vaccines at one time.  They get hosed down on hot days and walked on cold days.  That doesn't make them 100% protected, but it helps.
 
Deuce had a mild case of colic when he was only months old.  He got a little too hot.  The vet was called out and he was tubed with a little mineral oil and was good to go. 
 
His sister has had a few bouts with colic.  Once I recall when she was a year or two old because we had started giving her alfalfa cubes.  She really liked those and had too many.  She had a case of colic once when the Man in Charge was out of town.  The girls and I had to load her up and haul her to the nearest vet.  This was probably only the second time I had ever hooked up the trailer and hauled a horse.  
 
More than a little never wracking.
 
It was also the first time this horse had ever left the farm alone.  The vet was rude and hit her with a broom because she was freaked out.  If I hadn't needed him at that moment, I would have taken the broom and beat the crap out of him.  He did tube her and give her mineral oil.  Once we were outside trying to load her, he locked the doors and left.  We were out there for a good hour trying to get a tranquilized horse loaded in a trailer in the dark.  There were so many shadows, she was scared to death.  If I ever see him (the vet) again, I hope he has a broom in his hands.
 
Colic is serious.  It is not fun.  It is better avoided.
 
We have had mild cases that we caught early and managed quickly.  We have had more severe cases that required vet care and a lot of sleepless hours.  Not to mention that you are usually out in the worst weather - hot and humid or freezing your butt off.
 
So, last Monday, I walked out to the barn at about 4:30 in the afternoon to throw some hay.  I tossed out a few flakes and quickly noticed that my mare was not interested at all.
 
not typical.
 
I went inside her stall and I could tell that she had been walking a lot.  I could also tell that she had laid down.  This is not unusual for her, but a piece of the puzzle.  I walked out into her run and spotted a fresh poop. 
 
fresh poop is good.
 
I pulled her out and hosed her down due to the heat that day.  It wasn't crazy hot, but it was a little humid and still.  Then I took her in her stall and checked her gums.  They were nice and pink and looking healthy.
 
gray/blueish color - bad.
 
I then pulled out a stethoscope and listened to her abdomen on both sides.  There were plenty of gurgling and rumbling sounds.
 
loud gut sound - good.
 
Scratching my head a little, I pulled out a digital thermometer and started searching for the Vaseline. 
 
can I say?
 
not being able to find something at a time like this - super irritating.
 
Finally finding the Vaseline, I lubed the thermometer, clicked the button until it beeped, raised her tail and inserted it.  Having to stand close enough that you can hear it beeping as it reads the temperature is a little akward, but necessary.  Once I hear rapid beeping, I pull out the thermometer and find that her temperature is in the normal range.
 
normal is good.
 
The Man in Charge came home and I filled him in.  Based on the information we had, he wasn't very worried.  All the above signs were good.  My gut was just telling me something else.  I ran to the feed store and grabbed some bags of shavings.  Once I got back, I pulled her out of her stall and tied her to the trailer.  I was hoping this would stimulate her a little.  It always worked with the older two horses, but they were athletes.  Competitors.  They thought if you were tied to the trailer, you were about to get saddled and the work would begin.  This usually stimulated a poop response.
 
Sort of - "Oh crap! We're about to get down to business."
 
literally
 
No such luck with my little one.  I then began the process of stripping her stall.  This is when I noticed fresh poop #2.  
 
Very nice.
 
I gave her fresh bedding, and then proceeded to walk her around the back yard.  The Man in Charge came out, I gave him an update, and again, he wasn't too worried.  We walked for a good 20 minutes or so, but one thing kept giving me pause.  There are certain things in the yard that would normally have peaked her interest or caused her concern.  Today they were not even phasing her.  After noticing that little fact, I decided to push the envelope.  I made a point to walk by one of the dog's balls in the yard and I started playing soccer with it as we walked.  This would bother her normally, but I wasn't even getting a rise out of her.  I finally took her back to the trailer and tied her to stand there for a bit.  I sat down on the back porch to watch her from a distance.  I picked up the phone to call a friend, and within five minutes of the conversation, poop #3.  I am guessing it was about 8:00 pm at this time.
 
very encouraging.
 
I finished my conversation, went to the trailer and untied her.  I pulled her inside her stall and grabbed a chair.  I positioned myself and a floor fan in the opening.  The Man in Charge came out and listened to her gut again.  She still had good sound, but I was noticing that she would lift her tail slightly, and pin her ears back.
 
cramping?
 
Whatever it was, it was uncomfortable.  I ran to the house and grabbed a shot of Banamine (pain medicine).  A standard dose for her would be 10cc, but due to the fact that we had good vitals, good gut sounds, and three poops - I only gave her half a dose.  Just a little something to take the edge off of her belly ache.  This seemed to work relatively quickly.
 
My Full-Timer came home from class at about 9:45 pm.  She came out to the barn and filled me in on her day.  I filled her in on mine, and we just chit-chatted for a while.  The Man in Charge came back out and I updated him on our progress.  We both agreed that if we could get one more poop out of her, we would probably be in the clear.  He suggested that I walk her around the yard a bit more and see what happened.  He headed inside, and my Full-timer did the same to grab a bite to eat.
 
I walked that horse around the yard for maybe 15 minutes, at which point she took a nose dive.  Once she hit the ground, I got her right back up.  We walked some more.  My Full-timer came back out, and Blaze took another dive in the yard.  This time she started rolling.  All the way to one side, then back over to the other.  I was able to get her stopped and up on her feet.  I had my Full-timer run in to get the Man in Charge.
 
rolling is bad.
 
this is how things get twisted.
 
twisted gut - very bad.
 
I managed to get her back into her stall before the whole crew showed back up.  We discussed what happened, and what we thought we should do.  The Man in Charge suggested a little old school method.  Hooking up the trailer and taking her for a ride to stimulate her.  It sounds crazy, but it has worked for us in the past, and is a lot cheaper than calling the vet.  It also doesn't hurt to give it a try.
 
He managed to hook up the trailer and pull it out.  At the same time, I was in the stall with Blaze and I had her loosely tied.  She was acting like she wanted to lay down, but I was able to keep her on her feet.  At the same moment that I heard the trailer moving, she took the biggest poop I have ever seen - poop #4.
 
Then all hell broke lose.
 
Literally, her knees started buckling, she went down and she immediately started thrashing around.  For those of you who don't know, this is dangerous.  Dangerous to her and to anyone near her.  I yelled for the Man in Charge, and when he got in there he told me to call the vet.  The only horses he had ever seen like that had died, so the emphasis was on hurry!
 
I ran to the house, made the call and waited for the vet to call back.  I then grabbed a syringe and loaded up another shot of Banamine (pain killer), but a full 10cc dose this time.  I could hear a lot of commotion outside, and my first thought was that the Man in Charge was trying to load her in the trailer anyway.
 
For the record, this would have upset me.
 
For the record, upset means make me madder than hell.
 
When I opened the door, I could see him standing outside of her stall, outside of the barn, but trying to hold the lead rope over the door.  He yelled at me to hurry.  As I made my way across the yard, the vet called.  I filled him in quickly, and explained that I had already given her 5cc of Banamine, could I give her an additional 10cc?  He told me to give the shot and he was on his way.
 
I am pretty sure he was calling from a deep sleep in bed. 
 
11:00 pm at this time.
 
When I came around inside the barn, I could see scrape marks all over the stall walls from where she had been down and thrashing, kicking anything and everything.  The Man in Charge was leaning over the door, but he had her up, and her head was against the door.
 
"If you're giving that shot, you better do it now before she goes down again!"
 
Talk about a little pressure.  I jumped in, and Thank the Lord, hit the vein on the first stab.  The Banamine hit her pretty quick.  The Man in Charge came inside, and the wait began.  The longest hour of our entire lives.  It started out okay, but the Banamine was not strong enough to last.  It took both of us to keep her on her feet and we were constantly asking the Full-Timer how long it had been.  Literally, the minute before the vet pulled in the drive, I was trying to call him to see if I could give her more.
 
I met our vet at the truck and filled him in.  He grabbed some necessities off the truck and rushed inside with me.  Very calmly he started his examination.  He checked all her vitals.  He checked her gums.  He listened for gut sounds.  He took her temperature.  He then stepped out to grab a tranquilizer to send her to "her happy place." 
 
His words.
 
Not mine.
 
It didn't take long and her head was hanging a few inches off the ground.  We were then tasked with the job of turning an 1100 lb. drunk around.  Once we had her in position, our vet slipped on the dreaded rubber glove.  This glove goes all the way to the arm pit.  He lubed it up with some jelly and lifted her tail.
 
The Full-timer made a prompt exit of the building.
 
Girl was out of there.
 
He did his examination or palpated her.  He explained what he was feeling, and the areas that seemed to be tender to her.  He wasn't feeling anything twisted or horrible, but he prefaced this with the fact that his arm could only reach the back third of her intestines.
 
nice.
 
We then were tasked with the job of turning our drunk patient back around.  At this time he pinched her nose with a twitch, and then proceeded to run a tube up her nostril, down her throat, and into her belly.  After finally reaching the belly, he was pleased that it was not full of fluid, I didn't even ask why this was important.  Then he pumped her full of mineral oil and some electrolytes.
 
As if all of this wasn't interesting and exciting enough, now is when the real fun began.  Upon completely his examination, the vet explained that he was encouraged by her vitals and color.  Usually, in worst case scenarios, these things would be elevated.  He explained that the tranquilizer she had been given would last about another thirty minutes.  Once that wore off, our instructions were as follows:
 
Let her rest and stay quiet.
If she becomes agitated or starts trying to lay down, take her out and walk her for thirty minutes.
After thirty minutes of walking, is she was still unsettled, give her another tranquilizer shot.
Then wait and repeat.
As long as she is quiet - she is okay.
If we reach the third shot - not good.
 
If we reached the third shot, we would then be faced with the decision of hospitalization and surgery or putting her down.  The cold, hard, ugly of it - we both agreed that surgery was not in the cards for her.  She has had a hard couple of years, and if we reached that point, we would just put her down and end her troubles.
 
The thought of calling in the back-hoe - chilling.
 
The vet left.  Now we were well into 1:00 in the morning, and everyone was tired.  The Man in Charge had an early day ahead, and my Full-timer had work.  I told them both to go inside.  I felt like I could handle it.  Whatever it was, I knew it was on me.  The Man in Charge felt much better after the vet left, and bet me Blaze would come out of the tranquilizer relaxed and on the other side of things.
 
The standing bet between us - $0.25!
 
I just told him that I hoped he was right, and went to the house to grab a cup of coffee and a couple of lawn chairs.  I came back, turned off all the lights in the barn, except for one, and set up camp just outside the door.  It was quiet.  Nothing but time to think.  It is crazy where your brain goes at times like these.  You start off positive. 
 
It's going to be okay.
 
She'll pull through this.
 
Then, it can get really dark and negative.
 
I'm going to have to call the back-hoe.
 
I hate planting horses - not a good crop.
 
Then, it just gets weird.
 
This will cut down on our vet bills.
 
I won't need anymore hay for the winter.
 
Sad.  Sad.  Sad.
 
At 2:00 am, she came out of the tranquilizer.  At first she was calm.  Then she started pacing a little.  Then she laid down.  The vet said laying down very still was okay.  Thrashing or rolling was not okay.  She got right up.  She paced a little more.  She laid down, then shot right up.  She then laid right back down on the other side and shot right back up.  I grabbed the halter.
 
We started walking circles around the back yard.  The first fifteen minutes were uneventful.  Then she started cramping because she would stop walking and pin her ears back.  I would stop and wait, once they passed, we moved on.  This lasted about ten more minutes and then she took another nose dive.  This time, she hit the ground hard.  She tried to roll, but I refused to let her.  Once I had her back on her feet, we made a bee-line for the barn.  I got her in her stall and gave her the tranquilizer shot.  Then I waited.
 
It did not work.
 
She was getting no relief from the medication.  She kept trying to lay down.  I wouldn't let her.  This is no easy task.  There was pleading.  Yelling.  Crying.  It went on for about twenty minutes.  Twenty minutes of panic for myself.  This was not part of the plan.  We did not cover this scenario.  What was I supposed to do?  How long do I have to wait to give the next shot?  Can I give it this soon?  That last shot would be the beginning of the end.  I did not want to go there.  We could not go there.
 
We wrestled around for about twenty minutes and she finally went down in her stall.  She laid out flat, and when she jerked her head up, she whacked the bottom of her water bucket.  Well, this caused her water to splash out and drench her head.  She immediately shot up, with a look on her face that said,
 
"What the hell did you do that for?"
 
This worked in my favor for a few more minutes because she stayed on her feet.  Then she hit the floor and started thrashing.  She flipped over and got herself stuck right up against the wall.  At this point, I was useless.  Having to bail out of the stall for my own safety, the only thing I could do was grab a whip and try to motivate her to get herself out of the mess she was in.  It was scary.  Neither one of us liked it, but it worked.  Once she got to her feet, I jumped in and put the halter on her.  At this point, she broke out in a solid sweat.  I drug her outside and started hosing her down.
 
She seemed to like this and calmed down a little.  Then we started walking.  I had no other choice.  If I gave her the next shot, it would be admitting defeat, and we would be making hard decisions.  If I could keep her up and keep her walking, maybe we could get through this.  It was 3:00 am. 
 
During something like this, time plays tricks on you.  It felt like we had walked miles and for hours...only fifteen minutes.
 
ugh.
 
We kept at it.  I walked.  She walked.  I drug her at times.  She still walked.  The neighbor horse would give out a yell.  She yelled back.  Deuce would throw his two cents in from inside the barn.  This went on and on.  I am still shocked that no one inside my home could hear this.  Finally, at 3:30 in the morning, I put her back in her stall.  She seemed worn out.  I turned off the lights and took up my post outside the barn.  All was quiet.  This was good.  She stayed calm.  Only making a lap around her stall every now and then.
 
The only distraction, a crazy hoot owl.  It was dark and impossible to see where he was exactly.  I do know that he changed positions a few times.  He remained persistent with the hooting.  I thought it was odd, considering one would think he should be hunting.  Hooting and hunting don't seem like they go together to me, but he kept at it.  At first it was cute.  Then, super annoying.
 
By 4:00 am, I was getting a little punchy.  The owl was starting to get funny.  I had already blown through my five lives on Candy Crush, or Candy Crack as I like to call it. 
 
If you don't know what Candy Crush is - do not look it up! 
 
It is the most addictive game on the planet and of course, I have it on my phone.  I also vaguely recall posting something on my blog.  Then the strangest thing happened.  I got cold.  I have been complaining about the heat.  I am sick of it.  I have never been so ready for winter.  The sensation was very odd and I tried to ignore it for a bit.  I finally had to make a trip to the house for a jacket.  I snuck in, and everyone was out.  I grabbed a hoody and another cup of coffee.
 
how many cups of coffee can one drink in a night?
 
I went back outside.  Blaze was still quiet.  The owl was still hooting.  I settled in.  I drank my coffee.  Waited thirty minutes for my new life on Candy Crush.  Played that to the death a little too quickly and then moved on to the game Collapse.  Who knew, but the dew sets sometime between 4:00 and 5:00 am.  If you are sitting outside when that happens, watch out!  I went from cold to chilled to the bone.  I was literally shivering.  I had my hoody pulled down, my hands shoved in my pockets, and I was freezing. 
 
At about 5:15, I snuck inside.  Flower was sleeping in my recliner, and she was laying on a blanket.  I rudely shoved her out of my chair and grabbed that blanket.  As I was wrapping up in it, I was thanking her for getting it warm.  She was not saying, "Your welcome."  She was giving me a dirty look as she went around the corner to get in her bed.  It was sort of rude of me.  I know she was waiting for me to come inside to go to bed.  That is just the kind of dog she is, but, damn it.  I was cold.  I allowed myself about fifteen minutes to sit wrapped in that blanket, then I headed back out. 
 
All was quiet.  Even the stupid owl at this point.  I stayed at my post until 6:15.  I felt pretty good that we were heading in the right direction.  I had not seen any poop out of my girl, but she was resting quietly.  I headed inside, and fell in my chair.  I crashed pretty quick because when the Man in Charge woke me at 6:45, it seemed like I had just sat down.  He wanted to know how things went.  I told him he owed me a quarter.  Then I filled him in.
 
The next day was long.  I had to keep an eye on her.  At this point, we were waiting for poop with Mineral oil.  It was the last thing that went in, and if you see it making it's way out, you know you're wide open.  She was more than a little upset that she was not getting fed.  I didn't take this personally, but took it as a good sign.  Finally, about noon, I gave her a handful of hay.  Literally, a hand full.  I went inside and crashed for two hours.  I was so tired, when I woke up, I did not know what day it was.  I did not know where I was.  What I was supposed to be doing.  I was in a fog.  When I finally shook it off, I jumped up and ran to the barn.  Where I promptly started celebrating the poop in the corner.
 
Glamorous, I know.
 
This started the process.  A little hay, a little poop.  It proceeded for the next 24 hours.  It was crazy.  It was not typical.  It was scary, and I don't ever want to do that again.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Day #24

Well, it is a good thing that we are not required to use the prompts given for this challenge.

I would be a total failure. 

The whole month is about service.

Get out there.

Do something for someone.

Stop thinking about you for two minutes.

Drag your family and friends.

It is so worth it, and if you don't feel like doing that, then just pick an organization and write the check.

Monday, September 23, 2013

Challenge Day #23

I do not know what the prompt is for today.  I have not looked and I do not have time to look.  As you can see, we skipped a few days.  I am not going to apologize.  I realize that I was committed to making this challenge thing work, but then life happens.  For instance, my Part-Timer came home for the weekend.  So, I gave myself a hall pass on the challenge and spent time with her instead.  I drug her and her friend across three counties on Saturday because she had some things to tend to, then we spent Sunday going through some stuff and getting her packed and on her way.  Several things you should know here...

  • If you are single and dating - I am so sorry.  Upstanding girls have it really rough these days.  There are not plenty of fish in the sea.  The sea is shrinking.  It is more like a really shallow pond.  Plus, your peers, you know the hoochy ones, are not helping you out at all.

  • Driving back and forth across three counties can wipe you and your whole day out.

  • Purging your junk and having someone get excited about the things that you no longer want or need can be a great incentive to get your butt up and get some things done.

  • When you write a post about how your Part-Timer never brings her work gloves when she comes home, and she calls you all offended.  Don't sweat it.  She doesn't mean it.  Once again, no gloves and no time for work. 


I am sure there are more things that I learned over the course of events, but that is not the point.  The point is, I am okay.  I did not hurt myself.  My horse did not die.  I am here.  I will get caught up, and the cold front made it.

Can you believe, in the 50's last night?

Awesome!

I feel human again.

So, with the incentive of purging crap, clearing things out and the cooler weather.  I have to go.  I am ready to tackle something today, and for once, it isn't someone. 

I am trying to work on my anger management issues. 

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Challenge Day #19

Pearl Buck said, "To serve is beautiful, but only if it is done with joy and a whole heart and a free mind." Do you think you can serve without joy? Is it still a good deed if it is done halfheartedly?

Let's break this down for a moment.  The point of serving is to do for someone other than yourself.  So, if we are taking ourselves out of the equation, then what does joy have to do with it?  I don't have to have joy to do something for someone else.  It usually is a secondary emotion, but not a necessity.  Doing a good deed, even if it is halfheartedly, is better than doing nothing at all.  Right?

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Challenge Day #18

The horse is coming along.

I will not be giving you a  play-by-play today.  It is too late and it is too long.  I am going to try to write a little on the prompts that I have missed.  Let's get right to it.



Do you think it is most important to give money, time, or expertise?

I am going to have to say all of the above.  I think it is important to give money if you know the organization you are dealing with, and you know where it is going.  I love to pledge money for particular things.  Then you know where the money goes.  If you spend any time with non-profits, you know that not all of them are frugal and just about the cause.  In those cases, I give time or I purchase specific items needed and donate them, or find another non-profit.  Expertise is always valuable.  If you have it and you can share it, by all means.

All of the above.

Next question...



Gretchen Rubin recommends "Be selfless, if only for selfish reasons," pointing out that those who help out tend to be happier. What do you feel when you volunteer?

When you are wrapped up in "the greater good" of *fill in the blank* it makes you happy. 

Positive = Happy

That doesn't mean that you won't feel other things.  You may feel tired, worn out, run down, exhausted, used, frustrated, etc...etc...

I love the feeling I get from giving something big or small.

Next Question...



Do you ever voluntarily do what you could get paid to do? Why or why not?

This is super easy for me - YES.

Why?

I am not the bread winner of this family for one thing.  Although, I joke with the Man in Charge that I get paid *insert his salary here* to do the things I do.  Then I always tease him about the deal he's getting.  Not that I haven't won my share of bread, I just don't currently do so, nor have I done so since January 31, 2001.  I remember the specific date because it was the day I received my previous year's bonus, and promptly told my bosses to kiss my you know what, and I walked out the door.

Good-bye corporate world.

I haven't dealt with that B.S. since.

Back to the question - whether or not I could get paid for something is irrelevant.  Possibly I would think of it differently if I was supporting myself or my family, but I don't, so it is not a thought that crosses my mind.



I think that gets me caught up on what we missed.  I know I could have written more, but I still have to head outside to take care of some horse business and some chicken business.  I am slowly getting caught up on my rest, now I have to tackle the chores that I have neglected.

Funny side story:

I was so tired last night when I got into bed, the Man in Charge was watching television and I asked him what he was watching.  He looked at me and said, "You have asked me that three times."  Well of course I argued he was crazy and I had done no such thing.  He was adamant.  Then he told me that I needed to get some sleep.  Actually it was,

"Woman.  You need to go to sleep."

I did not argue.  I grabbed my eye mask, put it on, and I was out.

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Day #17

Sliding in by the seat of my pants, but I am determined to post every day this month.

I have no idea what the prompt was for yesterday or today.  I suppose it is okay because I have no intention of writing about it.  I will catch up on those later.

As of right now, my horse is doing much better.  We still have a little more to do before we are back to 100%, but we are on the right track.

I am going to give you a play by play of the events, but not today.  I only slept about 45 minutes last night, and then I managed a couple of hours earlier this afternoon.  To say that I am dragging would be an understatement. 

I do intend to drag my butt to bed.

Right now!

Day #16

I missed my post for the 16th.

I drug my feet all day.

Then ended up with a sick horse about 5:30 in the evening.

I thought we were getting somewhere positive by about 10:30 last night, but no luck.

The vet was out here at midnight and I'm still in the thick of it.

It is after 4:00 am and technically it is the 17th, but I am going with better late than never.

Besides, the sun has not come up so in my mind, it is not a new day yet.

She is still restless.

Gotta Go!

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Day #15

Thought I would try to report in a little early today.  I don't want any of you worrying that I may have tripped and fallen over a bale of hay last night.  You know, left for dead until this morning because it would have taken that long before anyone missed me. 

No worries.

Billy the Kid and I managed to get things moved around and unloaded out there.  I did see one small mouse, and he scared the crap out of me.  I know I jumped.  Which is sort of silly, but I was a little on edge.  I looked around for Kid, but he was busy having a moment with a bale of straw. 

What do I mean by that?

Literally, having a moment.  He worked that bale of straw over for quite a long time.  It was sort of weird, but he was purring and rubbing his cheek along the straw.  Then he would flip around, purring and rubbing the other side.  That straw is pretty prickly,  and I guess it felt as good as any scratching I could give him.  He was focused on that straw for about a half an hour.

The mouse lives another day.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Day #14

I almost forgot about you.

I started my day pretty early and headed out to pick up a load of hay.

super fun

Then I met with a customer on my way back through town.  That took all of ten minutes, and I made a stop at the hospital to visit a friend.  By the time I made it home, I was already tired.  Tired or depressed, I am not sure.

really sad

Instead of unloading my hay, I came inside and sat down at my computer.  I goofed around for quite a bit and then ate a bowl of yogurt with grapes and pecans   *yum* 

So, finding myself thoroughly pooped after that morning, I took a nap.

I awoke to the end of a horrible movie, but decided to watch it anyway. 

Why do I do this? 

My Full-timer came home from work and we decided to bail on the chores and head to town.  A stop off at Barnes and Noble for a book and coffee, and I started feeling human again.  We then made our way to Home Depot to pick up a few supplies for a new project I am kicking around.  One final stop at the grocery store, and now I am back home. 

I know this is crazy exciting for you. 

Basically what I am saying ~ I blew off my whole day

Now, remembering to write a post for the day, I am rambling.  Rambling because I have a truck loaded down with 25 bales of hay to unload and it is after 10:00 pm.  As if that weren't bad enough, I believe I need to move things around in the hay barn to make room for this hay.  I don't know about you, but moving things around in the hay barn at night is not my idea of an exciting Saturday night.  Although, it could prove to be very exciting if something else is out there moving things around.  We have been known to have our fair share of wild life out here.  Check out the posts labeled Wild Life if you don't believe me.

Long ago are the days of a Hot Saturday Night.

Here I go.

Wish me luck.

Friday, September 13, 2013

Challenge Day #13

Do you like to get credit for your good deeds?

No. 

I do not. 

I don't find it necessary and I would prefer to do most things anonymously, if at all possible.

As sad as it is, that is really all I have to say today.  I have wasted most of my day on Pinterest.  I try to stay away from Pinterest, but they send me emails occasionally with Boards that I will love.  I have to give them credit, they are pretty good at it.  I usually do love them, and have wasted a good three hours or more looking at them. 

If you have no idea what Pinterest is, then check them out www.pinterest.com. 

I did see and learn a lot about hair, hairstyles, DIY hair treatments, make-up that I will never wear, and a ton of pins on painting furniture.  This should tell you a little bit about what I look at when I do visit Pinterest.  I have a lot of unfinished projects, and may have just inspired myself to start one or two.

I am not sure it will even make a dent, but I have to start somewhere. 

That pretty well sums up my day.

Come on cold front. 

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Challenge Day #12

Abraham Lincoln said, "To ease another’s heartache is to forget one’s own." Have you ever eased your heartache by helping someone else?

This is deep.

One of those questions that really make you stop and think about yourself.

Easing heartache.

Mine or someone else's.

I just don't know, people.

Wouldn't this be a better question for the people that are in my life?

Have I ever even eased some one's heartache?

Funny thing.  I just took a break from this post to answer a phone call.  A very important phone call.  You see, I have a friend that is battling cancer.  The thing is, he doesn't really seem to want to battle.  His family wants to do what the Doctors say, but he doesn't seem to have it in him.  He was scheduled for his first round of chemo therapy today, and he didn't want to go.  The whole thing is a mess.

What is right and what is wrong?

It did make me stop and think about my dad.  He died of cancer.  When he was diagnosed, he decided he wanted to fight.  It was going to be a long road, but if he wanted to fight, I was behind him.  The first week of radiation was hell.  It basically cooked him from the inside out.  He made it through one week, then said, "That's enough.  I am done."  Again, I was behind him.  He came home for a while and it was hard.  I finally had to put him in a nursing home. 

On Christmas Eve.

It was miserable.  Talk about heartache.  He was furious with me.  I cried all the way home.  When I went to see him on Christmas Day, he was a completely different man.  Gone was the anger.  Gone was the frustration.  He had attended the morning church service, and it was like the day before had never happened.  This started the next and last phase of our relationship.  It was wonderful, and I will never forget those days.  I wrote about him, and I will share it with you again today.

He eased my heartache.

I hope I eased his.

Celebrating a last New Year's Eve with my Dad - Out with the Old, In with the new

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Challenge Day #11

Have you ever helped on a campaign? Tell us your campaigning story.

Yes. 

Yes, I have.

It was yesterday.

It was awful.

He didn't get a single comment of support.

Sad.

Very sad.

I don't know how I will break it to him.

Maybe over a can of Fancy Feast?

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Challenge Day #10

If you were absolutely certain to win, which public office would you want to hold?

None of the above, but this guy would love to be President.



He thinks he is very important.

If you are trying to get some work done, chances are pretty good that this face will show up.

Hey. 

What are you doing?

Got time to pet the best cat in the world?

You know I'm awesome and you can't resist.

My name is Kid.

Billy the Kid.

Don't let my name fool you.

I am a lover, not a fighter.

When the neighbor cat comes over, I let my mom chase him off.

Then I stand in the middle of my yard like I own it.

Come on now.

You know you want to pet me.

Monday, September 9, 2013

Challenge Day #9

Would you ever want to run for public office? Why or why not?

No.  No.  No.

My Grandmother always said, "There are two things you should never mess with...people's money and people's children."

Well, she never actually said that, but if she thought about it long enough, she would have.  I did hear that somewhere, but I don't remember where.  I believe it though.  I got involved with a few projects during our school years, and people get funny about their kids.  Especially if you have high expectations for them, and you tend to hold their feet to the fire.  It still amazes me the number of parents that don't mean what they say.  It is so important in a young individuals life to get a good grasp of that concept, but there are so many that are missing that boat.

Sorry.

I'll get off my soap box.

I realize there is a need for politics.  I respect people that open themselves up to the scrutiny involved in the job.  I am just not one of them.  Again, outspoken and confrontational.  Politics require that you win over the majority.  I am not good at saying what people want to hear if it is not what I believe.  I am not good at giving vague answers.  I am certainly not good at the lies.

I know there are good politicians in the world, but I also know there are a large number that are very corrupt.  I can not play that game.  I also can not keep my mouth shut when faced with said corruption.  Even in a small town, the political game is played everyday.  The bigger difference is that most people are more aware of it.  I have been shocked at the number of people in the political arena, in a small town, that make decisions for the sole benefit of themselves.  I make decisions in the political arena with my vote.  Then I let the-powers-that-be, hash out the rest.  The benefit of the small town, keeping secrets is very hard.

I prefer to run my own home.  Where it is not a democracy.  There is no vote.  The Man in Charge and myself make the decisions for our family based on what we think is best, and until you are off the payroll, that is just the way things go.

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Challenge Day #8 and Random thing #5

I don't want to be jiggly.

Is it okay to say that out loud? 

I've been jiggly. 

I don't like it. 

In June, of last year, I found something that really worked for me in regard to getting rid of the jiggles.  Paleo.  I am not going to go into the how and why, just know that I tried a number of things, and this is the thing that worked for me.  I lost weight.  I gained energy.  I did not feel like I was starving myself.  These are all very important things.

I have to give all the credit to my all-time-favorite cousin.  She used to write a blog, I heart groceries, until she changed her eating habits and decided she had other things to do, like feeling great and living her life.  She has been very key in my success.  She has spent hours answering endless questions and replying to rambling emails and text messages.  I love her for that, and for many other reasons.  She is patient.  I need patient. 

Thanks, chick!

For all your help and for all you do.

You can Google Paleo for yourself and read all about it.  Me personally, I don't know if I buy into the whole mantra of the thing, for me, it is just eating clean food.  Not processed.  Meat products that are from animals that are responsibly raised.  Cutting out the carbohydrates and seriously knocking out the sugar.  Again, not going to get into a lot of the details about the diet, but at the end of this post, I will leave you a list of books that really helped me get an understanding on things.  If you read them, please share your experiences.  I would love to hear about it.

How did we get here?

Jiggly - remember?

Before I got really serious about cutting sugar out of my life, I drank a lot of coffee.  A lot of coffee with a lot of sugar and creamer and more sugar and topped off with a little more sugar.  So, to give up sugar left me with quite a dilemma when it came to my morning cup of joe.  I need my coffee.  I just do.  Then I saw something on another Blog. 

Yes, I am a blog reader also.

You may have heard of a little lady living in the Oklahoma area, Pioneer Woman.  She blogs.  She blogs about her family and about cooking.  Girl can definitely cook some things that will make you jiggly.  They are good, but then you have the jiggly thing.  She talks about jiggling herself.  I have cooked a lot of her recipes in the past, but then found it best to adapt them to the less-jiggly side of things.  As unlikely as it seams, she provided me with a solution for my coffee habit.  I will let you look at her version before we continue.  Go ahead.  Click the link below, I'll wait here.

The Pioneer Woman - Perfect Iced Coffee

Okay, so after re-reading the above blog post, I realized that I do not follow directions well.  Not at all!

As you saw yourself, she used one pound of coffee for two gallons of water. 

Oops.

I use one pound of coffee for about 5 quarts of water. 

No wonder I get so many things accomplished when I have my iced coffee.

I did say that I adapted the recipe. 

Again, I use one pound of coffee for 5 quarts of water.  To make things easier, I just put the coffee in a cheese cloth and tie it up.  Then I submerge it into my water.  This makes the last step so much easier.  Just pull out the cheese cloth with the grounds inside and toss them.  Then refrigerate what you have left.  Except this time, I cut the coffee and water in half and let the stuff sit in the refrigerator overnight.  The next morning, I tossed the grounds and my coffee was already cold. 

Duh.

I can't believe it took me so long to come up with that one.

The next change comes when it is time to consume it.  For one, we don't call it iced coffee.  We call it Brew.  Full-timer often refers to it as Creek Water.  After the ice melts a little, it looks like creek water.  We start with a full glass of ice.  Then we add half to two-thirds Brew, and top with milk.  We use either 2% or Whole milk.  No sweetener.  The next step involves a straw and a brain freeze.

It's hot here.

Cool things are refreshing.

Then you better hang on. 

Things will happen.

Good.

Bad.

Either way - there is no stopping it.

I know it seems a little late in the year to share such things, but I have been really dumb for the last month and a half.  You see, I ran out of Brew about mid-July, and I never made another batch.

Why?

I don't know.

I have been drinking coffee and adding sugar.  Sugar on a reduced level, but still adding sugar. 

The problem:  When I start my day with a little sugar, I need a little sugar all day long. 

You know what I mean?

So, in protest of the fifteen pounds I gained back. In protest of the large number of cheeseburgers I have consumed.  In protest of the slump that I have been in...I made a batch of Brew. 

I am such an idiot.

Why have I done this to myself?

What was I thinking?

Depriving myself of this life-saving necessity?

I have finally managed to accomplish a few things around here.  I mowed the yard.  I hauled in fifty bales of hay and stacked and stored them in the hay barn.  I cooked.

Crazy, right?

Make a batch of Brew...consume cautiously.



Here are the books I mentioned earlier. 

I think I have proven that you should read things for yourself and not take my word for it.

The Paleo Solution

The Paleo Answer

The Fat Loss Bible

Digestive Health with REAL Food

The Great Cholesterol Con

Wheat Belly

Cholesterol Clarity

the 30 Day Guide to Paleo Cooking

All of the above are available at Amazon.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Day #7

I may have mentioned this earlier, the blogging challenge that I have accepted gives daily prompts during the week.  The weekends are all mine.  I can do whatever I like.  So I thought I would let you in on the latest adventure out here on the farm.

We have chickens.  Lots of chickens.  This is no a secret.  We started the year with a certain number of chickens, then over the course of the last few months, we lost a few.  Well, more than a few.  The culprit - coyotes.  I get that predators have their place in the world, but could they move it on down the road a little?  We managed to do a few things that really seem to have made a difference, and I am happy to report that we are holding our own so far.

We have been in the chicken business for about five years now.  I sort of have a love-hate relationship with my chickens.  I love the birds themselves.  They are very entertaining and interesting.  I love the eggs.  My birds are really well taken care of, and I am very particular about their diet.  This makes me feel very good about the eggs they produce.  I am not a fan of large, commercial animal operations, of any kind, and do not want to eat eggs that come from them. 

The hate side of things comes from the friends they attract.  If you have chickens, you will have snakes, skunks, and possums.

Not fun.

They also tend to be a money pit.  I sell my eggs, and have yet to make a profit on my chicken operation.  It can be a little depressing at times.  You do all this work, and then this or that happens, and you either have to reinvest or hang it up.  If you had asked me at the beginning of this year, I would have told you this is it for me on the chicken thing.  I actually did tell several people this very thing.   My intentions were to let the flock dwindle down to a manageable level that would supply eggs for my family and a few friends.

Well...

I happened to be at the feed store when they brought in a batch of new chicks.  I bought eight.  I have no photos or video of them as of yet.  I have actually had them for a few weeks.  I also bought four birds that were about eight weeks old at the time. 

I may have a bit of a chicken habit?

My Full-Timer had a cow. 

She went on a rant like you have never heard before.  Sort of funny since she is gone all the time.

What does she care? 

This still does not completely solve my problem.  I can only do so many things to manage my birds.  They have to do the rest.  They also have to learn to pay attention to what is going on and get to a safe location when they sense something after them.  After a few brief conversations with the Man in Charge, I decided to get some Guineas.  I have heard they are fierce watchdogs, and after doing a little research, found that they can be beneficial to a flock of chickens.  They just tend to be more aware of their surroundings, and they know how to sound the alarms when something evil is lurking about.  They have also been known to kill snakes.

Killing two birds with one stone here.

Sorry.

Poor taste.

I managed to acquire two Guinea Keets rather quickly. 

Keets being the term used for baby Guineas. 

They were about a month old when I got them, and they are living with the eight week old birds I purchased.  Two is good, but I needed more.  I placed an order with my favorite hatchery, Murray McMurray Hatchery, and my birds were delivered this past Thursday.  If you have ever ordered birds, you know they ship in the mail. 

Yes, regular mail.

So, your post office will call you at about 6:30 in the morning to tell you to come pick up your birds. 
I ran down there, and they were making a ton of noise.  This is not uncommon.  They usually ship the same day they hatch.  Then they spend two or three days traveling without food or water.  By the time you get your hands on them, they need some attention.  I brought them home and transferred them to a larger box with food and water available.  They started eating and drinking and trying to run.  I say trying to run because they were more than a little wobbly.  Never-the-less, they were determined.  They also started screaming at the top of their lungs.  I have never heard anything so loud in all my life.  Ear piercing - loud!  I tried everything I could think of.  Nothing was helping.

What have I done?

In my panic, I did what anyone would do.  I jumped on Google. 

What was I doing wrong? 

What did I need to be doing? 

What? 

What? 

What? 

I was doing everything I was reading.  I even had them in the garage so they would be warm enough.  It was cooking out there to me, and it was pretty hot outside.  Surely, they are warm enough.

This is what they did for a good couple of hours.  You may want to cover your ears, or keep your hand on the volume.


This went on and on.  I was seriously trying to decide if I could put them back in their box and send them back.  Finally, I relented and put a heat lamp on them.  Mind you, it has been over 100 degrees here, but I was at the end of my rope.  Almost immediately they stopped screaming.  They did not stop running around though.  They were non-stop.  I checked on them several times during the day, and they were quite busy.  I had read on the Internet that they should be sleepy.  Sleepy to the point that I should not be concerned about them if they seem to sleep all the time. 

Not these little guys.

Later, before bed, I snuck out there and it was quiet.  I was very scared that I would disturb them, but I couldn't resist.

 
 
I was certain, the little guy with his eye open, would jump up and sound the alarm and get the whole gang going at it again, but he didn't .  They were worn out!
 
 
Thank you, Lord!
 
 
Here they are on day 2.  No screaming.  Nice and calm.  Still running, but they seem a little more stable.
 

 
 



Friday, September 6, 2013

Challenge Day #6

Margaret Mead said, "Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world; indeed, it's the only thing that ever has." Have you ever felt as if you changed the world?

No.

Can you make a change in some one's world? 

Yes.

Do I feel like I have made a change in some one's world? 

A time or two.

I think most people are looking for a leader.  Most people want someone to follow.  Most people will jump on the wagon to make change if they believe in who they are following.  Based on that fact, yes, a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world.  If people believe, they will follow, and change will happen.

Buyer Beware: 

Not all change is good. 

Not all change is positive. 

Not all change is what it seems. 

Not all change leads to the original result that was intended.

For as many positive changes, there have been negative ones. 

Maybe even more.